Masochism

I clearly do have masochistic tendencies. Why else would I keep insisting on doing this to myself?
Work is going well; I have things under control, and I don't have to work overtime any more. Backlog is all cleared, hurrah!

Thing is...I have so many assignments to complete. So much reading and research to do, so much presentation preparation, so many deadlines to meet. My fight or flight response started kicking in today, after I received a whole pile of documents at work, shortly after I received new assignments and deadlines for class.

My immediate reaction is usually that of flight. When something scares me, I run. Sometimes, it is the wiser option to run. In this case, however, it would be bloody stupid to run. This time, I'm going to stay and fight. I'm determined to excel. I just need to put in just a little more effort. If I plan my time right, after accounting for office hours, commuting, eating, sleeping and showering... I might just be able to hit 30 hours a week on my studies.

I'll just need to be really disciplined from now on. Which probably means no more staying up til 1am! Unless I'm actually doing work, that is.

Hey, Chip! I know you'll read this so...help me out a bit, yeah? Crack that whip! ;)

I just looked at my calendar again, and there are so many things for me to do! Why oh why do I inflict such torture on myself?